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Saturday weigh-in, feeling good

December 3, 2011 4 comments

I stepped on the scale this morning and was a little nervous.  After we got back home from spending Thanksgiving with my mom, I had gained a couple of pounds back.  So, I was very pleasantly surprised when the scale said 326.4!  I even had pajamas on, so I’m thinking it might actually be a wee bit lower.  Only 6.4 more pounds to go to hit my immediate goal!  After I typed this, I went upstairs to shower and weighed myself again, sans pajamas.  Guess what?  The scale read 325.2.  Even better – sweet!

We ate pretty well this week – not as much dining out is always a help.  And the couple of days where we had a big lunch, I just had some cereal for dinner, which helped keep the calories in check.  I’m honestly not paying much attention to the carbs right now.  Earlier this year I was successful losing 20 pounds in 4 months just due to lowering calories and exercising.  We’re still trying to make good choices when it comes to carbs, but they aren’t freaking me out like they used to.  Of course that is always subject to change 🙂

Last night was good for my soul.  For some reason, I’ve been feeling particularly “down” for the last month or two and haven’t been able to put a finger on exactly what was causing it.  In the spirit of the holidays, last night we watched the movie “Elf” as a family.  This year was really the first that our son was able to watch the whole thing without being bored and we all had good laughs!  Of course the fire in the fireplace and the S’Mores didn’t hurt either.

Speaking of movies, while out shopping yesterday, DH and I picked up National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation on blu-ray.  That is my all-time favorite holiday movie!  Unfortunately, it isn’t something we can share with DS due to language, but maybe if it comes on TV and is dubbed he could watch it.

What is your favorite holiday movie?

Categories: Family, Weight Loss

Don’t go shopping when hungry…or snacky…

November 19, 2011 2 comments

Of course, that’s exactly what I did tonight.  For some reason, I’ve had the “blues” for about a week.  At first I thought it was because I was nervous about getting the results of my chest CT scan.  (Had one on Monday – it was a repeat scan after one about 6 months ago showed a couple of “non-specific lymph nodes”.)  I have this weird thing where I can’t believe that I’m so happy and just wait for the other shoe to fall.  Don’t ask me, I wish I knew why.  Maybe it is related to my weight.  Okay, probably is.

Anywho, I saw my doctor Friday and he said everything was just perfect and I’m totally fine.  The lymph nodes shrunk back down and he thought I probably just had a viral infection back then and that’s why they were a little larger than normal.

But, do I feel any better?

Yesterday I was euphoric.  First, the good news from my doctor.  Second, I did a presentation in front of over 100 people and had about 10 people come up later to compliment me.  I had depression about 14 years ago and at that point in my life, I couldn’t do anything during the light of day because I had such anxiety around people.  So, I’m incredibly proud of where I am in my life.  Which kind of brings me back to the whole “can’t believe I’m so happy” syndrome.

But wait, there’s more.

Today, my super-intelligent DH had to work, so it was just DS and I.  We went to McDonald’s for lunch (his choice) and while we were there, got a call from a friend of his, wondering if he wanted to come over and play.  Great, we were both really excited!  But as I was driving away after dropping him off, I got this major sense of…loneliness.  I can’t really describe it.  I was a kind of tickled to have 2 hours all to myself, but I just panicked because I didn’t know what to do with it!  Hell, I think that was my first two hours all by myself in almost 6 years where I had literally nothing to do!

So now you know my mindset today.  I decided to go grocery shopping tonight, excited because it is a short week (going “home” for Thanksgiving) and I didn’t have much to get.  But I really wanted a snack.  And you can tell when a woman trying to lose weight is wanting to binge because her shopping cart is this strange dichotomy of “bad things that are better for you than the real bad things”.  I’m pretty sure I would have just been better off to buy the thing I was craving (a big chocolate bar with caramel in it), but instead, I bought:

  • A box of Atkins endulge bars – peanut caramel something or other flavor
  • Dark chocolate peanut M&Ms (hey, dark chocolate is good for you and peanuts don’t have many carbs – bonus!)
  • A box of Breyer’s CarbSmart ice cream bars

Had some M&Ms, and now I’m just tired.  Tomorrow is a new day and I’m trying to just take deep breaths and focus on being happy – not worrying that for some reason I don’t deserve the blessings in my life.

Categories: Family, Weight Loss

Fall is the bestest

November 5, 2011 Leave a comment

We’re having a really great weekend.  My mom, my sister, and my 3 year-old nephew are down for the weekend for a visit.  We’ve been having a lot of fun, but it is hard to figure out how having just 2 kiddos in the house increases the noise quotient by 500%!  My sweet DS totally adores his little cousin, so it’s all good.  My sister enjoys playing Just Dance as much as I do – and I have to admit I get a little thrill with the fact that I score higher than she does and she’s thin 🙂  Fat girls can dance!

Today while most everyone was napping, DS and I went outside and played soccer in the yard.  One of my motivators for losing weight was to be more active for my son and I feel like today was a perfect example of that.  Heck I even raked up some leaves while we were out there.  The beautiful sunshine, crisp breeze, and colorful leaves all reminded me why fall is my favorite season.  And I can’t think of a better way to have enjoyed it than playing soccer with my little cutie!  So yeah, I’m feeling pretty awesome today.

Tonight I’ve got to get our meals planned for the week.  I’m thinking we need to be pretty good.  After seeing the scale move a little bit in the last week (I’m down 1 pound), it is motivation for me to couple the exercise I’ve been doing with healthy eating and hopefully see more movement.  Plus I’ve been reading some other blogs for motivation (see my Blogroll) and have a new sense of “I-can-do-it-iveness”.  I’ve also got to do this to help my DH.  His blood sugars were so good while we were following the South Beach Diet.  So I hope if I can just plan the meals as healthy as possible, it doesn’t even give him a choice to misbehave.  It doesn’t give me a choice either, for that matter.

Categories: Family, Weight Loss

Reasons for losing…

June 3, 2011 Leave a comment

I’m in what you would call a bit of a slump.  Granted, it is probably self-induced (hello Olive Garden for dinner to celebrate DS’s last day of preschool), but it is a slump nonetheless.  I have gained and lost the same 3-4 pounds for the last couple of weeks.  Tomorrow we’re going to get an cheap TV stand for the basement so we can hook up our old TV and DVD player – then I’ll be able to do my “Lift Weights to Lose Weight” workout down there.  I’m a little nervous to stop the bike riding to lift weights a few times a week, so I might try to do it all together after a few weeks.  I hate being away from my family for a full hour, but if it will get me over this hill, then it will be worth it in the end.  Heck, I’m scheduled for a sleep study in a couple of weeks and if I end up being diagnosed w/ sleep apnea (like my doc thinks), then I may even be able to get myself out of bed at 6am to work out.  We’ll see about that…

So anyway, I thought that trying to list out my reasons for wanting to lose weight might help give me that little extra motivation I need to keep going and to stop sabotaging myself with those “little extras” (a bite of chocolate here, a few chips with my taco salad there).  My reasons vary from the self-altruistic (wanting to be healthy) to the no-brainers (wanting extra energy to play with my son) to the purely vain (I don’t want to be the “fat mom” when DS goes to Kindergarten).  I feel almost embarrassed to admit that last one.  It isn’t so much for me – it is to protect my DS from teasing.  He’s been taught that God made us in all shapes and sizes and that’s really cool…but I still worry.

I’ll list 5 of my reasons for wanting to lose weight.  If you’re trying to lose weight too, I’d love to hear from you.  What are your reasons for wanting to lose weight?

1.  I want to be healthy.

2.  I want to be able to run around (literally) in the backyard with my son.

3.  I don’t want to be the “fat mom” when DS goes to Kindergarten.

4.  I want to set a good habit of eating healthy and exercising for my son.

5.  I want to be able to shop at a mainstream department store.

Categories: Family, Weight Loss

Proud Momma Gonna Cry, Then Exercise

June 1, 2011 Leave a comment

We just got back inside from taking pictures of DS in his cute little cap and gown.  He graduates from preschool tomorrow – I can’t believe it.  Pictures turned out great.  Unfortunately, I put his cap on backwards and by the time we started taking them with it on the correct way, DS was pretty much over it!  We still got a few cute pictures.  Break out the scrapbook, pass the Kleenex.  Think I’m gonna go exercise now…

Categories: Family, Life

Getting Back on Track

May 30, 2011 Leave a comment

Well, it was a glorious weekend.  I have to admit, I’m a little blue as I sit here and type this – my boys are upstairs taking a nap and the house is so quiet compared to what it was earlier this weekend.  It started on Friday with DS’s 5th birthday.  It was a fun day – we went out to dinner at Logan’s, which is where DS picked to go – and I can’t believe my little boy is already 5.  That night, my mom, sister, and my 2 year-old nephew arrive to stay with us for a few days.  Saturday was a bowling party for DS and his friends (hilarious!), followed by the arrival of my dad that afternoon.  My brother-in-law arrived that night and it was a full house filled with family and the sounds of 2 little boys playing together!  Sunday was our “family” party for DS.  Of course during all of this there were several attempts at being Martha Stewart, so we were really hopping all weekend long.  Everyone left yesterday or this morning, and I miss them all already.

Our ever-evolving journey to better health and weight loss took a little bit of a detour this weekend, as you can probably imagine.  I did have a cupcake, couple of cookies, and two pieces of birthday cake.  Tried to eat relatively well (whole grains if at all possible), but was way off the wagon several times.  At one point this morning I told DH that it was hard to get back on the wagon after eating so “free” this weekend, but we’re committed.  In fact, I just planned our dinners this week and we’re going to try to stick close to the Phase 1 way of eating except for a couple of nights where I’m planning to have carrots for a veggie (getting sick of nothing but green beans and disparagus, as DS calls it) and a tiny bit of brown rice to go with Chicken Marsala.

So, to get back on track we’re going to start off by having taco salad (without the crispy shell bowl) for dinner tonight.  I really love tacos, and even though I prefer to have the real thing, a salad will be close enough to get us going again.  Plus, we’ve been using this reduced-sodium taco seasoning for years (I believe it is Old El Paso).  I love it so much to the point where one time DH did the shopping and got the regular kind…and I could barely stand to eat it.  It just tasted too salty.  Go team!

Categories: Family, Weight Loss